CHANGE IN THE WIND

Friday, September 17, 2010 1800

The changing winds.

Things change. It’s a universal truth. Nothing is forever. Nothing is for sure. Everything might look fine today but just with a blink of an eye things might be otherwise. Today what you consider to be your strength might become your weakness tomorrow. What you are proud of today might be a matter of shame tomorrow. Your todays reason for doing things and running behind things would look totally futile tomorrow. But then I might ask my self what should be the deciding factor that I would decide things on. Even I myself am subjected to change with time. Even my views and my thought and almost everything about me is gonna change with time.

Today I somewhat regret my past actions looking at the present. Well I did things looking for the future at that time. The future has come and its not the way it should be like. So if I do things looking at the past and the present and for the future againg I would be making the same mistake wount i???

Life was simple and good. For I knew what I was doing or what I wanted or what I thought or what I wished for. But then all of a sudden the winds started changing. And it shook me to the very core. Its like travelling in a sail boat and the winds change. You got to change your very direction and that’s all that you could do about it.

Its real hard. Hard coz you keep on wondering the reason why. But thts gonna be really foolish aint it. For who asked you to decided the rest of the course when you were not sure about the course of the wind in the first place. So its just ending up at a conclusion that it was all your mistake. It looks funny and absurd but at the same time it shakes you to the core your being because everything has lost its meaning now. You feel alone and confused about the whole thing. And the real irony is that you cant even blame anyone for that. Its really stupid.

Now I am at a point that I could not decide what I have to do and what I don’t have to. All my thought my belifes my doings are a kind of doubt. And when your very intentions are questioned then there is nothing left to it, is it?

But then again I ask myself when I know the facts and I trust my belifs and intentions. Then whats wrong in keeping ion the same track and then again I think that it would again be really stupid of me…..

It all looks really stupid and really its all absurd and foolish and then again its pain in the ass………

Just confused that’s all………time would pass……winds would change again and in the mean time I would set my sails right……aint gonna give up that easy my friend……..
Rabba khair…….