dad

Dad

Sunday 19^th june 2011

2255hrs

I dont know how you felt when I was born as your child,

But mom says that you too happy for me n that you cried,
I was to little to remember anything,

Mom says to you I was everything.

There were hopes , dreams and many things you wanted me to be,

Courageous and brave and righteous , you wanted to see urself in me,

Mom says you were a comman man with a small salary salary,

But for me u used to spend a fortune on me happily

You used to play with me a lot and bring me lot of toys.

Things that I demanded and things which brought me joy.

I was too little to remember all this

Forgive me forgive me pls.

I remember you walking me when I cried not to go to school,

But you were very tolerant and made sure that I don’t remain a fool,

I grew up and so did you got a bit busy

Our lives changed and become so messy,

I had school friends girls and my little fun

You had business politics and money to earn.

The nights were the only times when we used to meet,

In the garden talking sometimes we used to sit.
I don’t remember you teaching me anything

But ur actions taught me everything,

The way you taked the way you walked was just perfect

To my eyes you were someone from a different sect.

I don’t know but you become my hero,

I wanted to be like you and not a zero,

Then I came in my teens and girls were on my mind,

You knew I was hiding and keen to find,

You were more like a friend

Few rules even you liked to bend.
i wanted life to be like a sweet song

but somehow things went wrong,

Your misunderstandings with ur brothers

Your drinking you took further,

I hated to see u drunk,
Ran away and tried to be a funk
Seeing you like that my heart was burning
But with you things about life even I was learning,
I knew how much you were in pain

I just wanted you to be more sane.

I tried to make u see the other part of life,
Ur two growing sons and ur brave wife,
But hurt was ur self respect and that was the twinkle of your eyes,
So much was the pain as enormous as the sky.

I knew you had made ur choice

Cant just forget the hurt to your poise,

I knew it was an intentional act,

And I knew I have to accept the fact.
Then came the hospital
Thought I would go mental.
I just knew what it was going to be,
But I was not brave enough to see,
One the first day the doc said seven days,
My heart sank and I lost my ways,
i didn’t know what I had to do,
Whom to share and where to turn to.
I started running from you,
For you were the one I loved most of the few,
I could not show that I am down to my brother
I had to be brave in front of my mother.
I went to places to be alone and cry
Shout at god and ask him why,
I wanted to let you know how much I loved you
But I could not for I know you wanted me to be as you,
On the last day I was standing by you holding my tears,
I knew in matter of time true will come my fears.
You were unable to speak n u were holding urhand in mine
I saw it in ur eyes saying son don’t worry everything would be fine.
You took all the pain without a word ,
Silently you left us just like a bird.

I just stood there watching in dismay,

I was holding ur hand but u just slipped away,

After u were gone I didn’t cry
Tears just didn’t come to my eyes.
I still don’t belive that u left me all alone and dry

I still see you sometimes just standing by.
I still run from the fact that you are no more

Just the thought still makes my eyes wet and my heart sore,

Where to shout and whom should I complain,
So many dreams with you just would be dreams in vain.
I wanted you to play with ur grandson,
Spoil him more than ur own son,
Y god did this to me a reason I cant see,
All that with you I could had be.
Dad I didnt say it but I wish you had seen it in my eye
My love for you was even bigger than the sky.
I miss u I missu I miss u a lot,
Life without u is just a small dot.
Without you I, in this crule world, just stand alone,

Feel I am naked and without a back bone.
I know that you would always be watching over me
And when I need u, there for me u will always be,

I miss u I miss u I miss u a lots………….DAD.

I was a little stupid but not that…….BAD……
At last your stupid son just say,
Dad happy fathers day.
Love you dad…………love u a lots.

Rabba Khair,

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i am there

i know how happy you would had been

i know a thousand dreams u must have seen,

i know ur hurt wont come out as u are you,

but i can see through i am one of those few.

i cant even imagine what you would had felt,

but i know what, to you, it relly meant,

i m here to stand by you and all your hurts to share,

but you just want to stay alone and thats just not fair.

why are you so why dont you show,

m a friend who cares not a foe,

i just want to share your pain,

take things out of your stupid brain,

i know you might be feeling a bit insecure

heavy would be the feeling that the fault is your,

you are someone special and i want you to know,

you to me are like the winters first snow.

i know its time that you will have to be strong,

in front of others laugh and sing a song

know that i am there if u need a sholder to cry,

let all ur hurts out and say to the pain good bye.

i want you to make her smile,

say to her dont worry everythings fine,

sit by her and hold her near,

say that u are my princess dear.

i want you to make her smile again,

erase everything that brings pain,

want you both to fly.....

too big and blue is the sky..........

rabba Khair

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