26th october 2010,
2015hrs

things are really chainging fast. work is good. and even my financial needs might just get resolved at the end of the week.....might go on for new thing may be.

i have a good feeling about this just let things be like this. when your mind is at peace a lot of things get easy. too easy. and pleset to. things look more preety.......

bye for now.

V G J

The Dawn

25th october 2010, 1715hrs

Time and tide has changed again. the bad timeshave passed. i new aura is felt in the air. things gonna change for good. the strom have subsided.

well its time for the new things now. gotta do a lot. gotto get on with it. so much to do in this small life.

VGJ

JUST ME

10th october 2010, sunday
1300
yesterday was a mess. all day long i didnt have good things running my mind. felt so caught up ininside....it was more like suffocating.....dont know when things would be normal again.
things are not good this way.

V G J

uncertain

life cant be planned. cant be predited. nothing is for sure and nothig can be said to be forever. the only way to live it to indulge into it blindfolded. take whatever it come and forget whatever is taken away form you. that you you could live a better life.

ecpectations always leads to dissatisfactions and dreams and emotions are ment to leave pain and scars you would never forget.

now a days i am bit to nagitive and sarcastic about things and people around me. well a few things lead to this but soon enough i think i would be back to my normal attitude. the careless and happy one.

just am a bit disturbed abut that doesnt mean that i am gonna be like this for ever things would soon be k.....i hope so......if not better than it would definately be different.

people change things and sometimes things change people.

Goodies

5th october 2010, tuesday
2340

i feel like a person who sees a small ray of light amids darkness. i hope that the dark clouds may pass and there would be a clear sky soon enough. and the sun would shine again. soon enough. god really is crazy. amids all the hell he gives you just one thng that keeps you going and going. you live on and on on just one little happiness. he got to keep his balances and ofcoures give us reasons to remember him. well somebody pls tell goddie that i remember him in good times too. and i thank him a lot ofent.

i never did thought that this could actually happen someday. but now that it really has lets enjoy it till it lasts. for i belive in one thing and only one thing that nothings for ever. and soon enough this feeling would pass too. and then it wont be able to make me this happy. so now let me enjoy.......

V G J

M E

ME

me! Stupid me. This is not I want or the way I had wanted it. Things could had been different and better. M just living the way it comes. Compromising on every aspect. Not that I am compromising wwith people or for other things. No not atall. ( I should atleast have a right to piss people off) but the thing is that I am compromising with myself. My ways. my thoughts. And my freedom. M like a sailless boat amids the ocean. Would flot where ever it takes me.

I don’t blame anyone nor do I have anything to complain. Life is just beautiful the way it is. I am not frustrated or restless with the things around me. Everything is fine. Coz m happy with myself. I don’t like to offend people but I have offended a lot of. I didn’t mean to. They got offended. It always happen when you try to mould other peoples ways. everybody is not foolish. If you try to bend the course of a stream you get wet don’t you? Why do you blame the water then. Simply coz your age is more than me doesn’t mean that you would always be right. Nor that what you think should only be they way that I should think. Your thought and belief are yours not mine. Let me find my own ways. and if I am wrong let me find it on my own. This way I would respect you more.

When I dont ask for your help I don’t need you to show that you care. Pls don’t fake it.

WHY DO YOU JUDGE ME?

27^th september 2010, Monday-0025hrs

Why do you judge me?

Well the heading itself says whats going in my heart. Well the thing is i never gave a damn thought to what people would say about my affairs but when that people come to be your family members it aches somewhere.

Blame me for the things i have done, no problem but why do you blame me for the things that i have not. Well thats gonna hurt. For what do you know what i do and what i dont. What do you know how i do things and how i dont. And when you dont know a thing why do you make a statement?

It may look to you that what you think is right. But its not. And i feel pity for you to be such a fool to know right from wrong. For after so many years you dont even know what are the facts.......

I dont give a damn about what the world thinks about me for i know what i am and what i am not. i just want them to blame me rightly...........

But one thing is clear that nobody is going to appericiate my work coz the simple reason is i dont barg and advertise about it. Coz i am an itrovert by nature. I dont share my feeling even with my close friends unless asked or i feel they might understand.

but thats not the way the world goes. It needs expressions. Advertisement. And thats something i am not too good at. And if they are saying that i am good for nothing today.....tomorrow they are goona say for sure that i am a thief......

and now that makes me think otherwise. I will have to look at my options......and i would have to make things right before it gets too late.....gonna do something now.

Coz i dont know wether this are delibrated or unintentional mind games they are playing but one thing is for sure that this blame game is gonna cost me my brother. And that fool doesnt understand that. I dont know what i am gonna do. But i just hope that i work out something.