Tuesday, June 14, 2011

The girl and the house.....

THE GIRL AND THE HOUSE.





There was a girl who lived in a far of place all alone in very big house. She lived there from a very long time. She was very found of that house. She used to decorate it paint it and used to furnish it. She loved it so much that she needed no one else. She used to talk with the house laugh with it play with it and stay with it.



The house loved her very much. Anything she wanted or did to it, it just accepted without any complaints. Tried to give her all the best it could. Shelter from the wind rain and sun. space to run wild and dance around. The house just loved her too much.



But slowly as time passed the house became old. Heavy rains and storms weakened it. The color faded and the walls cracked. The girl saw this and started loosing interest. She started going out in the wild to play and talk. Started to ignore the needs of the house. The house started looking more and more old. Many a times she tried to move out and many a times she did but somewhere in the corner of her heart the love for the house was too strong which always made her come back. Each time she came she came a little less.



She somehow decided that she would stay in the house for ever and the house was too happy for the house always stayed where it was for her. The house tried to give her the best it could but her needs were more than it could imagine. She had already lost her fondness and she looked for happiness from out side……..



Then came the winters. Cold and dark……… she was all alone. It was chilly and scary sometimes. One day she found a flame. The flame gave her warmth and joy that she needed. She started playing more and more with the flame. She became so found of it that she totally forgot the house. one day a storm came and she got scared and ran to the house. But she took the flame with her. The house got scared looking at the flame for it knew that it might burn him. But he saw that she was too happy with the flame to see that it had started heating up the house. She was so busy playing with the flame for it gave her warmth and joy the liveness in her life that she didn’t realize that it might burn the house down. Soon the house started burning slowly. Somehow she realized but was too scared to do anything. For she knew that if she put outs the flame the warmth and the joy would be gone. She kept wondering what to do, the flame kept burning the house and the house kept burning silently. Neither she wanted to burn the house nor she wanted to put out the flame…….



She didn’t act and when she realized it was too late. The house burned to ashes and so was gone the flame……there she stood all alone in the dark wondering why she didn’t put out the flame………..but it was too late…





The house lay there in ashes…………she stood there alone………………



Soon someone might build the house again



Soon she might find a new friend to play……………..





Prem Tamanno

Friday, June 10, 2011

stranger

friday, 10th june 2011


i feel like a stranger in my own home....
i just m totall confused to as what things really and what i think them to be i dont want anything that which is a forced action from any side......
i just want things to be simple. but the thing is that i myself aint able to be so. i am not able to accept things as they are and things as they look. sorry gota go....next time

prem tammano

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

the next morning.

Wednesday, 8th June 2011,
0710hrs

dont know why its all depended. i long for a state of mind which stays calm and unmoved my the events of life. i want stillness. i want peace. i want to accept life as it comes and flot where ever it takes me. i want to be happy with myself wan to be at peace. i want to let go all the frustrations and all the hurts and all the negetive things that makes me sad. i want to be a free bird. Want to fly without ties. the sky is really huge and there are so many places to be. there are so many beautiful things to see. so many just want to be. just be........

Prem Tamanno

LOVE NOT

Tuesday 7th June 2011
1050hrs

learned a new lesson in life. and its that love hurts. the first was expectiaions hurt. and i adapted to it too well never expecting anything from anyone had brought peace in my life.
today i have learned that love really hurts a lot. i had been through this a couple of times. but i never realized. always thought i might be wrong. love is beautiful and love is bliss but i was wrong. love makes ur life more worse than hell.....

today i promise myself that i would never ever fall in love again. and i will fake it as many times as it is needed and where it is needed but i will never let myself fall in love ever again. no matter what no matter who.

just want peace in my life. if it cant be happy let it not be but i want peace.....

Prem Tamanno.......

Friday, June 3, 2011

sleepless

Saturday 4th june 2011



1131hrs





Things are good for now. I don’t know what else to say. I see the change happening. I think it could work out really very well but I still have so many doubts. I see a better understanding might descend on us. everything could be beautiful. Life could be a lovely song.



But deep down I am confused and a state of fear prevails. Anxiety is to much. I have lost my sleep. This had never happenend to me before . I never had trouble sleeping in my entire life. Nothing could had possible kept me from sleeping. I just don’t know what to say.



I don’t know what I am afraid of. I just don’t know. Losing is not I am worried about nor is that I would go mad or anything. I just don’t know what its like .



Doc says that I need help and I think she is right at some point. I do need help. But I would prefer that I helped my self.



May be I nee time to get out of ll this fuck around me. Or may be I just need to express everything that’s in my heart . and may be that just what I need. I just need to get over this thing and move on. I would just do that…….





Prem Tamanno

Thursday, June 2, 2011

clouds.

Thursday 2nd june 2011


5:20 PM



Things had been too messy. I have been ripped apart. I feel like have been stabbed in the heart by the one I trusted the most. But I cant believe myself as what I reacted to it. May be it was not me who took the decision to still walk on the same path. Something are really hard to understand in life.


What now? I really don’t know. Everything is clouded and I don’t see the sky. And my heart wishes to hide from the storm.


I feel like drinking. I know its not what I want but still I feel like it. I should not had taken it. Now its time to move on with life. I have fooled myself enough. Want to live my life to the fullest. Want to chase my dreams. Just want to forget myself.




Prem Tamanno




Wednesday, May 25, 2011

the dark days

THE DARK DAYS



THURSDAY 26TH MAY 2011





I have known her too long. I can say that I know her better than she knows herself. What she is saying today is not what she is speaking. Its someone else. She is really easy to be brainwashed or to be lured in to affairs. I don’t know how much this is true but my instincts say that this could be the only reason. I know she is really stupid. And I know that it’s a powerful web to break. Let it be then.



I have made many mistakes. And I wont say its her fault at all. For its mine. No one like to be unhappy and if they get a chance to be more happy its their every right to be.



About me I don’t know what to wish for now. God has always granted me every wish and all my wish have just led me to unhappiness. It feels like I go head on for unhappiness. May be I should just stop wishing anything and let god decide whats best for me. Just want to make a stop to all nonsense.



It is enough. Just want to be still just need to be silent. Just want to let it all go…………………



bye.



Prem Tamanno