i am there

i know how happy you would had been

i know a thousand dreams u must have seen,

i know ur hurt wont come out as u are you,

but i can see through i am one of those few.

i cant even imagine what you would had felt,

but i know what, to you, it relly meant,

i m here to stand by you and all your hurts to share,

but you just want to stay alone and thats just not fair.

why are you so why dont you show,

m a friend who cares not a foe,

i just want to share your pain,

take things out of your stupid brain,

i know you might be feeling a bit insecure

heavy would be the feeling that the fault is your,

you are someone special and i want you to know,

you to me are like the winters first snow.

i know its time that you will have to be strong,

in front of others laugh and sing a song

know that i am there if u need a sholder to cry,

let all ur hurts out and say to the pain good bye.

i want you to make her smile,

say to her dont worry everythings fine,

sit by her and hold her near,

say that u are my princess dear.

i want you to make her smile again,

erase everything that brings pain,

want you both to fly.....

too big and blue is the sky..........

rabba Khair

Prem Tamanno.......

why

Whenever I miss u, I just get lost in memories of olden days

I still remember those lovely days, when in ur arms I use to lay

So easily u moved on n now u treat me as stranger

Still i tried to help u out but then u took me as a challenger

Sometimes I feel so hurt that I lock myself in room n loudly I shout

Its u who was wrong, its u who lied, n then its u who have doubts?

My poems were never to blame u, they were just my feeling’s portray

Its u who played with my feeling, then why cant I call ur fake love a betray?

Sometimes I curse my fate, because I met u, because I loved u

My feelings were true, tell me, that’s why am i in blues?

Today, i try to run away from this feeling called love.

Because a heartless person came in my life n acted like a dove,

But the bitter truth is, I am still in love with you

I still wish to spend some moments even if they r few

I cry a lot then try to find u in my tears………….

That crying never gave me pain but brought both of us near

Perhaps unconsciously I am trying to dream of that time

When world will be beautiful, I will be yours n u will be mine

Whenever I miss u, I just get lost in memories of olden days

I still remember those lovely days, when in ur arms I use to lay

So easily u moved on n now u treat me as stranger

Still i tried to help u out but then u took me as a challenger

Sometimes I feel so hurt that I lock myself in room n loudly I shout

Its u who was wrong, its u who lied, n then its u who have doubts?

My poems were never to blame u, they were just my feeling’s portray

Its u who played with my feeling, then why cant I call ur fake love a betray?

Sometimes I curse my fate, because I met u, because I loved u

My feelings were true, tell me, that’s why am i in blues?

Today, i try to run away from this feeling called love.

Because a heartless person came in my life n acted like a dove,

But the bitter truth is, I am still in love with you

I still wish to spend some moments even if they r few

I cry a lot then try to find u in my tears………….

That crying never gave me pain but brought both of us near

Perhaps unconsciously I am trying to dream of that time

When world will be beautiful, I will be yours n u will be mine

moving on

TUESDAY 14^th June 2011

2204hrs

The anxiety and the uncertainty for the outcome of the recent events is gone. I don’t feel anything for the moment. I did all I could and after feeling that all was in vain a sudden flow of regret threw away all that was in my heart. M clean now. I don’t know how long I would stay like this but I feel its not momentary. I got a hunch that this would stay. And I want it to stay. Just don’t want waste my life trying to dig a well in the desert.

If I have to shower my feeling for someone then I want it to be showered on someone who deserves. I don’t want my efforts to go in vain.

Soon I would be a free man. I know its going to be hard for sometime but I have things to manage myself and I know just suffering for a few moments will bring greater peace and happiness in our life latter on.

I know convincing everyone about my decision is going to be hard but I know that they will understand with time. For the moment I have decided to be silent. Everything will fall in its place when the time comes.

The only thing that creats doubts in me is my emotional nature and I don’t want that to creat any hindrance. I know I have to be strong. And if it demands being rude or ruthless so be it. I wont hesitate if it is required.

I now have no other options left. The thing I want will never be there. The thing that once was mine, aint mine anymore and I am not that cheap or selfish to take things just for my sake……….just cant do it anymore nor can I take it. Enough is enough. I would let u burn me to ash but I wont allow you to pee on my ashes. I don’t want to hurt myself anymore nor do I want to keep my happiness in anyone’s hand…………….

Just cant take it anymore……just cant do it anymore.

just want peace……..

Prem Tamanno…

The girl and the house.....

THE GIRL AND THE HOUSE.

There was a girl who lived in a far of place all alone in very big house. She lived there from a very long time. She was very found of that house. She used to decorate it paint it and used to furnish it. She loved it so much that she needed no one else. She used to talk with the house laugh with it play with it and stay with it.

The house loved her very much. Anything she wanted or did to it, it just accepted without any complaints. Tried to give her all the best it could. Shelter from the wind rain and sun. space to run wild and dance around. The house just loved her too much.

But slowly as time passed the house became old. Heavy rains and storms weakened it. The color faded and the walls cracked. The girl saw this and started loosing interest. She started going out in the wild to play and talk. Started to ignore the needs of the house. The house started looking more and more old. Many a times she tried to move out and many a times she did but somewhere in the corner of her heart the love for the house was too strong which always made her come back. Each time she came she came a little less.

She somehow decided that she would stay in the house for ever and the house was too happy for the house always stayed where it was for her. The house tried to give her the best it could but her needs were more than it could imagine. She had already lost her fondness and she looked for happiness from out side……..

Then came the winters. Cold and dark……… she was all alone. It was chilly and scary sometimes. One day she found a flame. The flame gave her warmth and joy that she needed. She started playing more and more with the flame. She became so found of it that she totally forgot the house. one day a storm came and she got scared and ran to the house. But she took the flame with her. The house got scared looking at the flame for it knew that it might burn him. But he saw that she was too happy with the flame to see that it had started heating up the house. She was so busy playing with the flame for it gave her warmth and joy the liveness in her life that she didn’t realize that it might burn the house down. Soon the house started burning slowly. Somehow she realized but was too scared to do anything. For she knew that if she put outs the flame the warmth and the joy would be gone. She kept wondering what to do, the flame kept burning the house and the house kept burning silently. Neither she wanted to burn the house nor she wanted to put out the flame…….

She didn’t act and when she realized it was too late. The house burned to ashes and so was gone the flame……there she stood all alone in the dark wondering why she didn’t put out the flame………..but it was too late…

The house lay there in ashes…………she stood there alone………………

Soon someone might build the house again

Soon she might find a new friend to play……………..

Prem Tamanno

stranger

friday, 10th june 2011


i feel like a stranger in my own home....
i just m totall confused to as what things really and what i think them to be i dont want anything that which is a forced action from any side......
i just want things to be simple. but the thing is that i myself aint able to be so. i am not able to accept things as they are and things as they look. sorry gota go....next time

prem tammano

the next morning.

Wednesday, 8th June 2011,
0710hrs

dont know why its all depended. i long for a state of mind which stays calm and unmoved my the events of life. i want stillness. i want peace. i want to accept life as it comes and flot where ever it takes me. i want to be happy with myself wan to be at peace. i want to let go all the frustrations and all the hurts and all the negetive things that makes me sad. i want to be a free bird. Want to fly without ties. the sky is really huge and there are so many places to be. there are so many beautiful things to see. so many just want to be. just be........

Prem Tamanno

LOVE NOT

Tuesday 7th June 2011
1050hrs

learned a new lesson in life. and its that love hurts. the first was expectiaions hurt. and i adapted to it too well never expecting anything from anyone had brought peace in my life.
today i have learned that love really hurts a lot. i had been through this a couple of times. but i never realized. always thought i might be wrong. love is beautiful and love is bliss but i was wrong. love makes ur life more worse than hell.....

today i promise myself that i would never ever fall in love again. and i will fake it as many times as it is needed and where it is needed but i will never let myself fall in love ever again. no matter what no matter who.

just want peace in my life. if it cant be happy let it not be but i want peace.....

Prem Tamanno.......