clouds.

Thursday 2^nd june 2011

5:20 PM

Things had been too messy. I have been ripped apart. I feel like have been stabbed in the heart by the one I trusted the most. But I cant believe myself as what I reacted to it. May be it was not me who took the decision to still walk on the same path. Something are really hard to understand in life.

What now? I really don’t know. Everything is clouded and I don’t see the sky. And my heart wishes to hide from the storm.

I feel like drinking. I know its not what I want but still I feel like it. I should not had taken it. Now its time to move on with life. I have fooled myself enough. Want to live my life to the fullest. Want to chase my dreams. Just want to forget myself.

Prem Tamanno

the dark days

THE DARK DAYS

THURSDAY 26^TH MAY 2011

I have known her too long. I can say that I know her better than she knows herself. What she is saying today is not what she is speaking. Its someone else. She is really easy to be brainwashed or to be lured in to affairs. I don’t know how much this is true but my instincts say that this could be the only reason. I know she is really stupid. And I know that it’s a powerful web to break. Let it be then.

I have made many mistakes. And I wont say its her fault at all. For its mine. No one like to be unhappy and if they get a chance to be more happy its their every right to be.

About me I don’t know what to wish for now. God has always granted me every wish and all my wish have just led me to unhappiness. It feels like I go head on for unhappiness. May be I should just stop wishing anything and let god decide whats best for me. Just want to make a stop to all nonsense.

It is enough. Just want to be still just need to be silent. Just want to let it all go…………………

bye.

Prem Tamanno

the puppet

wednesday 25th May 2011,

i dont understand as to why i let this to happen to me everytime. it has happenend a hundred of times and everytime its the same. they say they cant and walk away. i stand there and watch them go by. and i just dont let them go but even keep waiting for them to return. how stupid i could be. placing ones happiness in other peoples hand is not the way and i dont wish to do that anymore.

i aint going to wait and watch it it like i used to everytime. i have started to walk too. i dont know were to nor do i care. but i know that walking away is going to lead me to somthing new. better or worse but i am going to take my chances. enough of letting them make a fool out of me everytime.

for i know that now things would never be the same again. atleast not for me. you walk all the way to the edge of the cliff hand in hand with me and then you push me down. now i dont wish to see you down there to sooth my wounds. pls back off.

i aint gonna blame anyone for pushing me off the cliff but i sure am gonna regret walking hand in hand. and i will make sure i dont take that walk again. for everytime the depth went deeper and this time it was the deepest i could climb out of. i dont want to fall off it to anything from wich i cannot climb out. so i think if you want to take a walk againg towards the cliff then my friend i would like to stand afar and watch you take the walk and just may be i would preffer watching you take someone else for that walk.

how stupid i was and how foolish i could be......................................................

now its my time to walk away.....

Reflections

Tuesday, 24th May 2011,
0056hrs

the lake reflects the moon. but not by choice. it has not got any. if the moon is there it will reflect if not it will not. the lake reflects the moon on a ful moon day and it look too beautiful. but it looks dark and isolated when the sky is empty. and then that emptyness is reflected on the lake.

but sometimes the reflactions are not clear. sometimes the winds shakes to water and the image is scattered but the lake tries with all its might to clear the image again. and agin you see the beautiful moon being reflected. but then there are times when there are cloudly nights and rainy nights which dont let the lake reflect the moon.

the moon knows the clowds and the rainy nights but still wonders why its been not reflected. now how can the lake make the moon understand when he himslef doesnt want to understand. how can the lake make the moon to reflect against its will.

sometimes the clowds win sometimes the rain and some times the lake.
the moon stays up in the sky. he has got a thoudands of lakes and rivers to shine on but the lake has got ony one moon.

the plots

Sunday 22^nd May 2011

10:17 AM

After running after a certain thing all your life you find that it was worthless what do you do? You could do just two things. One is that you start running after some other thing or you just realize the folly of running and stop running.

But it really looks too strange to understand as if what now. Its like just out of the blue you lose your memories and you don’t know where to go. you have to start things from zero again. Well thins may be to early to say things like this but who knows that situation would arrive too.only good knows……

Atlast

We are now nearing the one of the tight corner of this case and I think that if we walk carefully all of it could possible turn to be good in some or the other way.

The people who turned us in are calling us and saying that they could and would get us out of this. bloody politics. I don’t give a damn. As of to what they think and I don’t give a fuck to what they want. For we know that they want and what they are up to.

They just played some dirty politics and now they want to cover it all up. They don’t know that its not that easy. They should know that we are not that small to sense things like this. at least not now.

Now all that I think is that we have done our part and now we just got to wait and watch for as to what happens. But one thing is for sure that we have done a hell of a job.

Don’t feel like righting now.

Latter bye.

THE BLOW.

Monday, May 23, 2011

10:17 AM.

Should I say that I made a mistake? To be honest, yes I did. I not only did jeopardize my career but also that of my family and friends too. I should had done things differently. But now when things have came so far than be it. I wont say that what I did was wrong. I m just saying that the way was a bit careless. This things need proper planning and thinking. Well to be honest even I didn’t know that this would happen.

Now the ball is not in our court or better to say that everything is out of our hands now. For it has gone to the party level now. Whats has happenend has happened now its time to do it the other way.

All I have To do now is to wait and watch what it leads to. Things as I know are quite shaky at the moment. Cant trust anyone. Well everything would be over in about a week and things would be back to normal again for every one. And as for me and my business well I know a few secrets to start it.

Bye for now.

V G J

Saturday,23^rd April 23, 2011

1100hrs

Its all confusing for now. Nobody actually know where this things is going to end. Surely both the sides wants compromises but don’t know how to initiate the negotiations.

As for me I m standing down for the time being. Will wait till all of this is over and will see what it leads to. Then if the need arises I will have my way.

as for now I have been advised to keep mum till all of this is over. For they think that the case thing would end in a compromise which would be beneficial for all. So I got to wait and see whats going to happen.

Apart form this, I am a bit curious and impatient about it all. I want results fast and my mind is at unrest. All day long I keep thinking about this stuff. And all day long I keep weaving new ideas in my head. Many things are at stake and I don’t wish to lose. Don’t know what else to say.

Tuesday, 26^th April 2011

10:17 AM

The Plot.

Politics is a dirty game. And politicians are the lowest forms of life ever possible. I have learnt my lesson. A lesson that I would never forget in my life. NEVER EVER TRUST A POLITICIAN. That’s the mistake that we did. And the very guys that we trusted betrayed us. they stood with us till the very end. Not to show us the way but to make sure that we don’t find the right way.

One thing I firmly believe is that whatever happens, happens for a reason and it all happens for good. For the time being only God knows whats good in this but my faith is a too strong to doubt it. Time is mighty of all and someday my time would come and that day all the things I have done would be paid for.

Today I have lost too much for this cause, my honor and my integrity is at stake, and backing now is not MY WAY. I am not step back unless and until i have it what I ask for. May it be that I am nothing compared to them but I am not gonna go down without a good fight. And honey I am gonna give them a hell of a fight.

Prem Tamanno.

10:17 AM

whats going on

Monday 23^rd May 2011

Yesterday was talking to a friend. He said a very beautiful thing. “if you are in love you would compromise everything for love and would not compromise love for anything.” He said love is a very beautiful and I said only till it lasts…….

K lets move on there are other things to do.

Today we got to see our lawyer and get the copies of the case. That had be put of for some time as we were to busy for anything else. As per now my instinct says that we are just alone in this fight. Everyone else have turned their back. And most probably just the guys on whose support we were fighting on. And my thinking says that now its time to reconsider the things all over again.

Now as per me there are only two thingsthat could be done at this stage. One is to go for compromise or to take this thing to a whole new level. Well I know very well that if this thing is taken to a new level it will be really out of our hands and then there would be no turning back. So I have to give a good thought over it. Have been pondering over this over three days and still I have not got a agreeable solution coz if I am to tqake this thing to a new level it get really big………….

Well got to go to khambhaliya right now…..bye for now…..

Monday 23^rd May 2011

Yesterday was talking to a friend. He said a very beautiful thing. “if you are in love you would compromise everything for love and would not compromise love for anything.” He said love is a very beautiful and I said only till it lasts…….

K lets move on there are other things to do.

Today we got to see our lawyer and get the copies of the case. That had be put of for some time as we were to busy for anything else. As per now my instinct says that we are just alone in this fight. Everyone else have turned their back. And most probably just the guys on whose support we were fighting on. And my thinking says that now its time to reconsider the things all over again.

Now as per me there are only two thingsthat could be done at this stage. One is to go for compromise or to take this thing to a whole new level. Well I know very well that if this thing is taken to a new level it will be really out of our hands and then there would be no turning back. So I have to give a good thought over it. Have been pondering over this over three days and still I have not got a agreeable solution coz if I am to tqake this thing to a new level it get really big………….

Well got to go to khambhaliya right now…..bye for now…..