7th jan 2005

06-Jan-11, 11:51 PM Hi. Just a few hrs and it would be six years dad passed away. Cant understand how time flew by. I don’t even miss him much nowadays nor do I see him in my dreams. I got his pics in my room but I hardly every look into those. I don’t know if I have accepted the fact and moved on with time or m still fooling myself. When I was at home in the morning for my breakfast just the thought that he is not here with me from last six years made my eyes wet. Sometimes I feel like crying out but tears wont come. Things would had been very different if he had been around. Many of my dreams are left unfinished with him gone forever. The little fights and the stupid jokes the mature talks and he teasing me. The tv fights and the drinking fights. The cigs I used to smoke looking at the gate hoping he wont come. Dad I miss you. I do. But what can I do now. Its too late now. I had been a fool and stubborn. I should had listen to what you had to say. I should had took care of you. You could had been here with us if I would had been different. You left me everything. You planned it well that I wont get stuck in life. But dad you left me alone. There is no one who understands me like you did. And no one who would love me like you did. I cant writ anything much now. Just want to say that I love you. And I really wish that I see you once again in this life……somewhere someday……….. Forgive your stupid son for his stupidities……………. 07-Jan-11, 12:16 AM